WHOLENESS

I have been thinking about the connection between freedom and wholeness.

Wholeness , feeling complete, being at home, feeling full and at ease.

And what keeps us from wholeness.

What keeps us from knowing our capacity for perfection.

Wholeness is not freedom from all pain, or limitation, or struggle.

Perhaps it is knowing it is our nature to experience pain and limitation and struggle

and to revel in the spaciousness between them,

in our ability to find freedom in limitation

and keep ourselves from holding in moments of struggle

open to where what we donʻt know will lead us

Our wonder

Today i was thinking of how much i appreciate our never ending ability to learn about ourselves. To grow our awareness and make new discoveries about old patterns we never noticed before.  

Although pain is uncomfortable, it is sometimes there as a result of how we have learned to move in the world.  When it is, itʻs very possible for us to unlearn those lessons enough to be able to make different choices.  The wonder of us, is that we can be responsive to subtle changes, undoings, releases of holding patterns…

April 29, 2026

 

Can we become equally adept at doing less as we are at doing too much?

we hold potential for a broad range of movement with infinite qualities of being.  AT offers a neuromuscular process through which we can undo habitual patterns of thinking, and instead make conscious choices that create the conditions for change to emerge.

AT lessons allow us, even direct us, to value doing less, to pause more, and to question our sometimes long held ways of responding so we may rediscover how they serve us.

I enjoy very much, being able to help a student feel

more at home

more at ease

more aware of how they move and interact

Imperfect Perfection

How often do you tense as you strive for a goal – – –

In the culture of my Japanese ancestors, an artist often deliberately flaws a piece so that we may appreciate perfection through inherent. imperfection.

When we tense as we effort, we are wanting to be perfect, to protect ourselves from failing, to succeed more than anything else. We forget the wonder of being able to effort, whether we are perfect or not.

How do you bring your full self to everything you do, if you are sometimes asked not to?

Settling into Harmony

This morning I received a post about the celebration of F.M. Alexander’s 150th birthday. I enjoyed the photos of teachers working together in Australia and the ease with which  they sat, stood and inclined towards each other.  Just looking at their photo helped me to feel more space in my self.  Whenever I come across a description of Alexander work  that captures the quality of this work that has become my lifelong practice, I want to share it.  My hope is that others will better understand what the Alexander Technique has to offer us in our everyday lives.

‘… the key to his success was when he changed his negative thinking.  “You have to go ‘I’m going to invite my head to be in a different relationship with my spine so that everything changes. His body expanded, his breath improved, his voice came back so I think the real essence is that positive thinking, that we need to redefine our activities in the positive and give our body gentle guidance.”’                        Penny McDonald, Alexander Teacher

 

Alexander teacher Janette Costin began learning the method 32 years ago and found it helped her overcome chronic pain in her neck and back.  She said modern technology and    habits were narrowing and constricting the body for many people.

 

“A lot of it comes down to how we respond to all the different stimuli in our life… whether that be a physical or emotional response and that will begin a habit that isn’t particularly useful to us.

 

“So it really is interrupting our natural coordination and our breathing coordination in particular that then can set up a bit of anxiety in our system and [Alexander Technique] is a really lovely way to settle things into some harmony. It’s wonderful.”

Harmful Posture Over Time Feels Normal

Why our social media habits are a pain in the neck

US surgeons seeing increase in patients with neck and upper back pain likely to be related to poor posture when using mobile phones

Report in ‘The Spine Journal’ says today’s children may need surgery by the time they reach their late 20s if they do not curb their social media use

Here’s a game to play the next time you are stuck in a queue. Try to spot somebody not looking down at their phone. Then ignore that person and examine the others. You don’t need to be a doctor to recognise that most of them will be holding their necks at a strange angle that makes them look almost like giraffes as they push their heads forward.

This awkward positioning would not be a problem were it not that our heads are rather heavy, weighing 4.5kg (10lbs) on average, and our necks are not particularly muscly.

We are designed to hold our heads upright. When we push our heads forward, whether to look down at the phone in our hands or forward to focus on a computer screen, neck strain is increased. The farther forward we push our heads, the more strain is put on the spine.

A recent report in The Spine Journal, the official publication of the North American Spine Society, says surgeons there are seeing an increase in patients with neck and upper back pain which is likely to be related to poor posture when using mobile phones. It even has a name: tech neck. The neck naturally curves backwards, but surgeons are seeing that curve reversed, giving patients disc or alignment problems. The authors of the report are concerned that today’s children may need surgery by the time they reach their late 20s if they do not curb their social media use.

Bad posture can contribute to a bulging disc due to degeneration of the cervical spine, or cervical radiculopathy where a nerve leaving the neck is pinched.

Most people carry the head too far forward, according to Frank Kennedy, an Alexander technique practitioner in Mount Merrion, Co Dublin. “This knocks the body out of kilter and has a big impact on posture. It imposes wear and tear on the joints and can make you look an inch or two shorter than your natural height,” he says.

“We need to expand our awareness of how we move,” he says. “Look at the screen with your eyes, rather than locking onto it. Concentrate with your mind, rather than jutting your head forward.”

Our tendency to be reactive does not help, he adds. “We jump up at everything from a text message to a door bell. Overreaction triggers tension pathways in the body. If we can create a gap between stimulus and response, then we can learn to stop tension. You don’t have to wait for the weekend or for a holiday to relax. We look for relaxation in each action.”

Part of the difficulty in helping people to change is that harmful posture over time feels normal

When under pressure, we tend to hold our breath. “Holding the breath sends the wrong signal to the brain,” says Kennedy. “We can learn to relax, breathe and send a message to feel at ease.”

Rose Costello is a journalist, fitness instructor and health coach who works one-to-one and in groups with people looking to get healthy. See zest4life.com

A Beautiful Description of the Alexander Technique

I apologize for not crediting the person who wrote this description of the Alexander Technique, that says so many things that I want to say every time someone asks me to describe this work and why one should study it. I will add the credit as soon as I relocate it:

 

“We are designed for movement.  Inherent in our design is an incredible capacity for ease, flexibility, power and expressiveness, whether we are dancing, hammering a nail, working at a computer, singing, or simply walking.  All too often we unknowingly interfere with this design, replacing energy, delight and grace with effort, tension and fatigue.  The Alexander Technique gives you a choice…allowing you to regain natural poise and balance within any activity.”

Personal Experience with Alexander lessons

I have been working on my Alexander Technique practice with Jill Guillermo-Togawa for over fifteen years. I first came to A.T. because I had persistent lower back pain that seemed inconsistent with my age and physical fitness level. I was looking for a way to more mindfully inhabit my structure, and see if I could reorganize my physical habits, thereby decreasing the discomfort in my lower back. Jill’s patient, intuitive, insightful guidance helped me to become more aware of how I was using–or, really overusing my structure, and unintentionally causing myself discomfort. I have been pain-free in my lower back ever since those first few sessions with Jill. 

 Her ability to explain the concepts and guide the student into her/his own awareness is remarkable.

Creating Ease

Every act of refusal is also an act of assent.  Every time we say no to consumer culture, we say yes to something more beautiful and sustaining.  Life is not something we go through or that happens to us; it’s something we create by our decisions.

Kathleen Dean Moore    If Your House Is On Fire

Studying the Alexander Technique, we learn that the most profound changes often happen when we stop trying.

A deep bow to Frank Ottiwell

frank1Frank Ottiwell was the main teacher who trained me to be a teacher of the Alexander Technique.  After I graduated more than 27 years ago, Frank continued to be my teacher, and also became a treasured mentor, ‘uncle’ to my daughter, and a friend who I was in awe of and admired and loved wholeheartedly.  I mourn his passing in August of this year, just past his 86th birthday.  I know how much i will miss being able to hear his voice, receive his warm and funny messages of his life, and his words that always encouraged me in my own life as teacher, artist and parent.

When I found out that Frank had died a few days ago, the sense of loss was so profound.  As I continued to think of him I found myself thinking of all that i had learned from him through his direct teaching and more importantly through his example.  Because I feel i owe so much of what i know as a teacher to Frank, it seemed the best way to honor and pay tribute to him might be to share some of Frank’s understanding of the Alexander Technique here.

From the opening address to the Alexander General Meeting June 11, 2009

It is interesting to have learned that when my computer appears to have gone haywire and I turn it off for a moment or two, when I turn it on again it has sorted itself out and is working just fine. The computer in my brain seems to respond to the same treatment—as Alexander discovered many years ago before the age of technology.

(on working with a teacher)   for me—the transformation happened in a couple of moments. I found it exhilarating and deeply satisfying as time after time she helped me to feel like the person I always wanted to be. I gradually learned not to judge or second-guess the amount of time stopping should take. My brain/nervous system knows when the time is enough. The solution starts to do itself and a total-pattern movement begins—a movement which is not looked for, a movement which is a surprise every time, but that on reflection is the most natural and appropriate thing to have happen.                                      

from an interview with Alexander Teacher Pamela Blanc

I keep being drawn back to the simplicity, the specifics and the discipline of the Technique—to the fascination of solving the puzzle over and over, and to finding the freedom to do it within the form. Alexander gave us all the clues, but in the end we still have to decipher the clues and solve the puzzle ourselves. The process continues to fascinate me—and to thrill me in those moments when it all comes together. Those thrilling moments are fewer than I would wish for, but when they come they seem to have been worth all the thought and waiting that has gone into them. I do regularly give thanks to FM, both for my working life and for keeping me silver in my golden years.

Frank continued his practice of the Alexander Technique until the end of his life.  He gave an interview to Alexander Teacher Ruth Rootberg on September 19, 2012

I was a very poor young acting student, with hardly the money for food or rent, let alone lessons.  But I did keep going back, and before long I somehow found the money for two or three lessons a week.  There was something that felt ‘right’ to me.  I must have been getting something that appealed to me at a very deep level.

I was immediately taken with the whole idea of non-doing.  At first I think I really took to the ideas behind the Technique, as opposed to getting what Forward and Up were.  That came along, but in the beginning , it was obviously a very deep feeling of, I don’t know – Life?  Yes, I think so.  The ideas of non-doing, wholeness and indirection struck an immediate chord with me, even though I had never heard of them before. 

i find that when I ask rather than tell, something ‘inside’ hears me and knows what I mean better than I do.  I don’t precisely know how to free my neck.  The most effective thought for me these days, when I feel tightness or holding ANYWHERE is: I wish I weren’t holding my neck so much.  I guess for me these days, it is all manner of inhibiting that keeps me going.

Each moment and action seems new when I am letting the action happen – letting it do itself and not controlling it directly.  Over the years I experienced many times, with a teacher, that if the Primary Control was finely tuned and active, whatever action I was intending would start by itself.  

So the gifts are endless.

And one of the things I’m glad about is I’m having this experience with the Technique, which is giving me a fascinating life.  I am never bored.